Good Monday morning! I have coffee and I’m remarkably chipper at the moment. I did want to share this update. You see above one of my posts from Instagram. Please don’t try to read the words on the screen, I promise you, you’ll probably throw up in your mouth a little.
If you missed it the other day, I share a sneak peek at my first chapter. You can read it here. Again, read at your own risk.
I don’t know what it is about this book. It has been the hardest thing to write. I’ve questioned myself over it so many times. Maybe this isn’t what I’m supposed to write? Maybe I should scrap the whole thing? My other two books were never this hard to write. Then I remember the inspiration for this book. I remember how strongly I felt about it when I first got the idea. Even now, if I tell someone about what the book and ultimately the trilogy is about, I get really excited. It just doesn’t translate when I sit down to write.
My buddy Daniel, who has been writing the collaborative story with me, has really been pushing me to just write. (You can go to his blog here) I’ve really tried. I’ve came up with excuses. I’ve blown it off completely. I even wrote a writer’s block haiku yesterday.
Words won’t come to me
A giant sasquatch stole them
Now I’ll never fin…
In fairness, I did write a little over half a thousand words yesterday. Doesn’t that sound so much better than saying I wrote a little over 500? Yes, I may be using this blog post to put off writing on the book this morning. Don’t judge me. Just pray for me.
I know what I need to do. I need to make deadlines. Deadlines keep me working. But I’m afraid if I’m the one making the deadline I can change it. Then I’ll forever be changing it. Ultimately what it boils down to is fear. I’m afraid I’ll fail. Afraid I’ll write something so utterly wretched that if someone reads it they’ll commit acts of violence because they wasted their life on it. No pressure right? The fate of society hangs on me and this book. We can’t have chaos. So my choices are write the book and risk inciting world violence, or not write it.
You guys better stock up on supplies because I’m off to write.